I am now retired. I knew my "flaw" was not kosher in the new Merck. Ken and Barbie models would gather on Wednesday afternoons to drink and be merry. They knew I would still out making one or two calls since most offices are closed on Wednesdays. Soon they don't even invite me to the Wednesday outings anymore. They gave me the look and wonder what was the big deal canceling out on lunches (to me it spells "commitment" and a "promise") for whatever reason, including for one Ken, he was out late often this ideal dream woman 100 miles away. Soon I realize Merck is not the old Merck anymore. Those with inner qualities and values are not treasured. Those who dress well, speak eloquently, and detail perfectly in workshops are praised and rewarded. It was time for me to retire and to live my life in a normal world, away from this twisted toxic corporate culture.
The way business in general now a days must be conducted in different than just a few years ago. More importantly, this shift has been more profound in this industry. The way things were are not relevent today, further, by carrying that baggage you are a liability to the required change that has to take place in culture.
Additionally, the role of rep is now recognized for what it always has been a cost element far in excess of the value it brings to the table.
Admit you have had a good ride, lucky almost, and move on, that reality has caught up with the current and likely future revenue streams of the industry.
I suspected as much that you might be retired and I don't blame you for getting out of our dysfunctional corporate environment. I know we all have our flaws but it seems there is an extreme shortage of people of character that one can respect and look up to in our corporation as well as society. It's a sad sad day when there is no one currently at Merck who comes to mind as worthy of admiration and respect. Instead we have a bunch of parasitic gamers feeding off a company that was once vibrant and healthy but is now very sick from the resultant "twisted toxic corporate culture" that supports them. If only Merck could heal thyself.
File away,because nothing will come of it,and you will have signed away a nice severance. Believe me,I know from past experience that they have you by the balls!!