Hairy and MFAS have accused me of being an unhappy person because I call myself a bitch and have a record of poor life choices. (Hey, congrats on being assholes!)
It wasn't MFAS, it was me.
I will tell you a story. Once upon a time there was a sweet girl who thought the world was fair and who thought hard work and honesty led to a good life.
I am sorry that you believed such foolishness. Life is inherently unfair. People who don't realize that early on are setting themselves up for major disappointment.
Then she found out that men lie and rpe, people cheat and steal,
I can't believe nobody else called you out on this generalization. Not all men lie and not all men rape. Not all people cheat and not all people steal.
the law is not here to protect you and no one really gives a crap about anyone but themselves. She got old, sick and tired, had evil people steal her happines and wealth.
Everyone gets old. Everyone gets sick and everyone gets tired. This is not something that is unique to you. Nobody can steal your happiness. It is sad that you believe(d) that your happiness is/was dependent on what others did or didn't do. It gives them way too much power over you.
When she needed her employer/job most, even this entity dumped her because she was sick. telling her to get a lawyer if she did not like it.
Your employer is not there to help you. Your employer is there to pay you a wage you believe is fair for your contributions.
I got a lawyer and he taught me a few things about life, the law, fairness, and people. I do not think after my life experiences there are any people who would NOT be a bitch when needed.
There are lots of people who have probably suffered worse and are not a bitch when needed. That is a choice you make and you have created yourself a nice excuse that you think is foolproof. When I read this, it sounds like you have earned the right to be a bitch (as you claim) because of wrongs you think have come your way. As long as you don't have to take responsibility for your own behavior that is all that counts. It isn't really you, it is the disease, the drugs or somebody else.
Most people who actually KNOW ME, call me an inspiration and a survivor!
Maybe you project a different personna in real life, but I don't see inspiration when I see you post.
My life experiences are the same reason we have a gun in every room. Did I think at fifty that I'd be in grad school with a student loan? Fuck no.
You make sound like being in grad school at your age is a burden. There is nothing wrong with furthering your education.
Am I trying to make the best of it? Yes. Is most of it do to choices? Some, but a lot of it was luck of the draw because my choices were good ones.
Very few people have the self awareness to admit that they made poor choices. But, assuming that you are correct and all of your choices were good, as MFAS said, sometimes bad things happen to good people.
Sadly, they did not lead to the desired outcome because other people fucked up.
So other people are responsible for your good choices not panning out?
(Funny how people blessed with good fortune will pat themselves on the back, while those they see as "cursed" blame that person for their choices! That is social psych 101.) I was not one of the lucky ones. My mom always said I liked to take the long way home. Maybe she was right.
You may not believe this, but I am sure that there are some people out there who think you are a very lucky person. It is easy to wallow in self pity and believe that what we are going through is worse than what anyone else is going through and that nobody else can understand.
I may not be the happiest person for sure, but I'm one of the hardest working, brightest, fun-loving, and peaceful people you would meet.
Don't take this as a slight toward you, but just an observation. I find it interesting that everyone thinks they are hard working and bright. I have never met anyone who claimed to be lazy and dumb. At the same time, everyone claims to know people who they work with who are actually lazy and dumb. The numbers just don't add up. So who is right?
Complex? Yes. Brilliant? Probably. A tad jealous of those that can kick back and retire now? Absolutely.
Jealousy is a self destructive emotion that should have no place in your life.
That being said, I keep pretty much to myself because I do not trust nor like most people. Why? They like to flash their success in your face and are so full of themselves they think they can tell others how to live life.
So everyone you have met is this way and you have given up on meeting new people? I don't deny that there are people like this, but not everyone is. Maybe you should try different avenues for meeting people.
I pretty much hate that. They believe that "good living" will lead to a blessed life. What they don't know is they are full of shit. Just because "it" has not happened to you or your family, don't assume that others who have have had something bad happen brought it on themselves. You have no compassion and that is why you should never sit in judgement of anyone else.
The irony is that with your preceding statements you sat in judgement of others.
