Yes, it does suck to be a cso. I am not proud of it. It tears me up inside to think this is the best I am able to do. It is humiliating and very disappointing. I am just shocked no one will even give me a interview. I need to work about another 40 years. That is alot of contracts. I dont know what to do. Any serious suggestions? I feel like such a worthless loser that I cant get a good job.