Alright - I've been here for 12 years. I've had some good managers (CTLs) and some bad ones. Mostly good. I used to love this job. Go home, take off my suit and enjoy my family. I didn't worry about the "busy bees" working overtime, in the background.
Now........
My manager is sending me "actionable" items at 6pm to be completed by noon the next day when I have a full day. Not complaining about doing the work....seems like we do a lot of unnecessary things for the hell of it that bring no value. Should I ask my CTL what the ROI is for doing stupid, meaningless reports? Haha. That would be funny. Not only that, but my CTL goes into my office and pisses off all my customers. They tries to fit in being a back-slapper etc. but they are culturally challenged and don't realize that they are acting like a fool. I wished I had my second manager again, who was my BEST. But - it's all good, I smile and nod at my Ctl when they "coach" me. Funny how I have been lucky enough to have a good formulary situation and had good numbers. Keeps my CTL off my back. Plus I keep my thoughts to myself and don't talk about my job to anyone else (not even my spouse) mostly because I'm embarrassed about what I do.
I am convinced this organization will shrink (like the rest of the industry) and it will be dog eat dog when the workforce is whittled. We're already starting to see that - I had 2 good colleagues get PIP'd out of the bus. last year who were older than me and both were damn good reps. Funny how the rest of the sales team turned their back on them - interesting dynamic. I used to think good people were in this industry but now I see a bunch of cowardly sycophants that will do anything to remain pharma whores and deliver their Boston Market for a paycheck. It's like seeing a bunch of white collar crack addicts holding onto their rock. Tragic. Sad. Humiliating.
I have been interviewing and I keep hearing the same thing over and over - "How do I know that you actually contributed to the sales process when you have another overlay, and you have had several in the past?" I try and try - examples, I did this, I was aggressive, I did that. Nobody believes me. Nobody cares. Pharma is a dead end job that offers no meaningful skill sets. I am worried about getting a good job when the hangover from this job sets in.
Anyway - I had a big dinner at my house last night with non-pharma friends. They asked me about my job and I sensed they could see the dull look in my eyes that says "this job sucks." Most of them had a glitter in their eyes about their jobs. I wish I had that. Lost it about 2004.
So I type this feeling awful about my station in life. Hate this job. Lord, save me.
Now........
My manager is sending me "actionable" items at 6pm to be completed by noon the next day when I have a full day. Not complaining about doing the work....seems like we do a lot of unnecessary things for the hell of it that bring no value. Should I ask my CTL what the ROI is for doing stupid, meaningless reports? Haha. That would be funny. Not only that, but my CTL goes into my office and pisses off all my customers. They tries to fit in being a back-slapper etc. but they are culturally challenged and don't realize that they are acting like a fool. I wished I had my second manager again, who was my BEST. But - it's all good, I smile and nod at my Ctl when they "coach" me. Funny how I have been lucky enough to have a good formulary situation and had good numbers. Keeps my CTL off my back. Plus I keep my thoughts to myself and don't talk about my job to anyone else (not even my spouse) mostly because I'm embarrassed about what I do.
I am convinced this organization will shrink (like the rest of the industry) and it will be dog eat dog when the workforce is whittled. We're already starting to see that - I had 2 good colleagues get PIP'd out of the bus. last year who were older than me and both were damn good reps. Funny how the rest of the sales team turned their back on them - interesting dynamic. I used to think good people were in this industry but now I see a bunch of cowardly sycophants that will do anything to remain pharma whores and deliver their Boston Market for a paycheck. It's like seeing a bunch of white collar crack addicts holding onto their rock. Tragic. Sad. Humiliating.
I have been interviewing and I keep hearing the same thing over and over - "How do I know that you actually contributed to the sales process when you have another overlay, and you have had several in the past?" I try and try - examples, I did this, I was aggressive, I did that. Nobody believes me. Nobody cares. Pharma is a dead end job that offers no meaningful skill sets. I am worried about getting a good job when the hangover from this job sets in.
Anyway - I had a big dinner at my house last night with non-pharma friends. They asked me about my job and I sensed they could see the dull look in my eyes that says "this job sucks." Most of them had a glitter in their eyes about their jobs. I wish I had that. Lost it about 2004.
So I type this feeling awful about my station in life. Hate this job. Lord, save me.
